The-Dark-Whispers

God, im so fucking pissed off. All of my fucking plans were ruined because my mom is so god damn thick headed i can’t even take the car for one afternoon just to drive around. I literally hangout with Hannah a few hours on the weekend, and thats if she doesn’t have anything to do, and its sooooo frustrating because we have been dating over three months, and i have now touched her all of 1 time, and it was A MONTH AND A HALF AGO. We want to start getting into things, but im obviously too young to my parents, and “not ready”. Seriously, fuck you mom. I’m so sick of hearing the “maybe we will pick out this car.” Its been three god damn months of car searching, stop getting my fucking hopes up to shoot them down. All i wanted was the car for friday afternoon, to drive around and hangout with Hannah, and this is what fucking happens. Good things only happen once in a lifetime, im not worried if i haven’t had my license for 12 months JESUS CHRIST I DON’T EVEN BREAK ANY RULES GIVE ME SOME FUCKING LEEWAY

Hello myself. Wow, today has been such a good day. Prom was last night, and ah it was so much fun, it really made me realize how much i love Hannah and care about her. This weekend is her last dance competition, and im happy and sad about it. Happy because she will finally have free time on the weekends, but sad because i won’t be able to see her perform for a while :/ She really looked beautiful at prom last night, and goes, “Hey, i have no bra on, and nothing on underneath.” Haha, it is a shame her mother had to bring us home, i was really hoping to go to a party with her afterwords, or even just hangout. One thing we must do together this summer, is go star watching, and fall asleep underneath the moon. It would be lovely :) Anyways, AP exams are next week, so i must go study and get all of my homework done. I can’t wait until this week is over, it is literally so stressful.

God, i have such a hard time coming to grips with Hannah’s smoking. Its like a really want to just accept it about her, and that it isn’t a bad thing, but just a part of me won’t let it happen. My head is constantly swirling at night, and i feel like im going crazy. Prom is tomorrow, and im nervous and anxious about it, and i want everything to be good and fun. But idk… everything is so confusing for me right now. I hate it :/

Wow, today really sucked. I’ve been sick for the past like 3 weeks, and the past two days its really gotten worse, so i’ve been laying in bed and doing nothing. Really hope it clears up before the end of my april vacation, because this week has been nothing but terrible. Oh well, prom is soon. And AP exams. :s ~over AND OUT